{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"PoohsDen","provider_url":"https:\/\/www.ourowncorner.com\/poohsden","author_name":"Vinitha","author_url":"https:\/\/www.ourowncorner.com\/poohsden\/author\/pooh_admin\/","title":"Another Birthday  &#8212; PoohsDen","type":"rich","width":600,"height":338,"html":"<blockquote class=\"wp-embedded-content\" data-secret=\"clsqi8D1X5\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.ourowncorner.com\/poohsden\/another-birthday\/\">Another Birthday<\/a><\/blockquote><iframe sandbox=\"allow-scripts\" security=\"restricted\" src=\"https:\/\/www.ourowncorner.com\/poohsden\/another-birthday\/embed\/#?secret=clsqi8D1X5\" width=\"600\" height=\"338\" title=\"&#8220;Another Birthday&#8221; &#8212; PoohsDen\" data-secret=\"clsqi8D1X5\" frameborder=\"0\" marginwidth=\"0\" marginheight=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\" class=\"wp-embedded-content\"><\/iframe><script type=\"text\/javascript\">\n\/* <![CDATA[ *\/\n\/*! This file is auto-generated *\/\n!function(d,l){\"use strict\";l.querySelector&&d.addEventListener&&\"undefined\"!=typeof URL&&(d.wp=d.wp||{},d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage||(d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage=function(e){var t=e.data;if((t||t.secret||t.message||t.value)&&!\/[^a-zA-Z0-9]\/.test(t.secret)){for(var s,r,n,a=l.querySelectorAll('iframe[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),o=l.querySelectorAll('blockquote[data-secret=\"'+t.secret+'\"]'),c=new RegExp(\"^https?:$\",\"i\"),i=0;i<o.length;i++)o[i].style.display=\"none\";for(i=0;i<a.length;i++)s=a[i],e.source===s.contentWindow&&(s.removeAttribute(\"style\"),\"height\"===t.message?(1e3<(r=parseInt(t.value,10))?r=1e3:~~r<200&&(r=200),s.height=r):\"link\"===t.message&&(r=new URL(s.getAttribute(\"src\")),n=new URL(t.value),c.test(n.protocol))&&n.host===r.host&&l.activeElement===s&&(d.top.location.href=t.value))}},d.addEventListener(\"message\",d.wp.receiveEmbedMessage,!1),l.addEventListener(\"DOMContentLoaded\",function(){for(var e,t,s=l.querySelectorAll(\"iframe.wp-embedded-content\"),r=0;r<s.length;r++)(t=(e=s[r]).getAttribute(\"data-secret\"))||(t=Math.random().toString(36).substring(2,12),e.src+=\"#?secret=\"+t,e.setAttribute(\"data-secret\",t)),e.contentWindow.postMessage({message:\"ready\",secret:t},\"*\")},!1)))}(window,document);\n\/\/# sourceURL=https:\/\/www.ourowncorner.com\/poohsden\/wp-includes\/js\/wp-embed.min.js\n\/* ]]> *\/\n<\/script>\n","description":"The grieving process varies and for years I have grieved through words. I have put all the pain and tears that takeover me and leave me lost into words. I write to feel better and it is a concept that some don&#8217;t get. In the past, I usually write the post much earlier and have it scheduled. I read it in the weeks following and I grieve. I then wipe off my tears and try to smile at the rainbow. This year I thought twice about writing this post and that is a rarity. I am not sure what changed. The pain remains. I ache for the past -the missed moments, those special moments we created. My dreams become nightmares shaded with places and people from the past. I wake up trying to shake those images off my mind and to stay away. I give in to insomnia in fear of the images that fill my mind. Some of the people who think they know me assume that I have issues with death. I don&#8217;t. I have accepted that my grandfather is long gone. I accept death as a part of life. My issue is with relearning to live. There [&hellip;]","thumbnail_url":"http:\/\/38.media.tumblr.com\/c6bb26df5755928fb34edddf5fa6a5ea\/tumblr_n6wqrfaFdw1rqpa8po1_500.jpg"}