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Another year passes by. 9 years and it seems like yesterday when you promised me you will always be with me. As I type these words, I squeeze my eyes shut tight and wish desperately to feel you – to hear your voice call me Jitu again. I need a sign – a sign everything will be all right. A sign that will make me stronger to face the days ahead. I wipe those tears rolling down my cheeks and tell myself to act my age and write a beautiful post in your memory.<\/p>\n

I wish I had something to write but all I can feel is bitterness.<\/p>\n

I miss you more than ever. I wish I had the answers and knew what to do. I wish I could ease the hurt and pain just like you used to do. I feel helpless. My words seem hollow. All I can do is wish for the best.<\/p>\n

I will keep up the unspoken words of promise I made to you – I will always love and cherish being your granddaughter. I will work the hardest to ease the pains and the sadness – the past couple of years and today as I carry within me not just the pain of losing you.<\/em><\/p>\n

After all these years all I want to do is stomp around you and demand answers and maybe even throw a tantrum – the way I always have.<\/p>\n

I miss you mamaiyaa. Wherever you are I just hope you have not abandoned us.<\/p>\n

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