{"id":8,"date":"2007-02-01T23:31:00","date_gmt":"2007-02-02T04:31:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sprajan.wordpress.com\/2007\/02\/01\/the-huge-meltdown\/"},"modified":"2010-05-03T09:10:52","modified_gmt":"2010-05-03T14:10:52","slug":"huge-meltdown","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ourowncorner.com\/poohsden\/huge-meltdown\/","title":{"rendered":"the huge meltdown"},"content":{"rendered":"<div style=\"text-align:justify;\"><span style=\"font-family: times new roman;\">I often wonder how I change suddenly.. one minute I am my usual self.. going around with my chores then the next minute,  sob<\/span><span style=\"font-family: times new roman;\">bing <\/span><span style=\"font-family: times new roman;\">all over Even R can not handle these moments, I know how she feels and how big a loss it was for her.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-family: times new roman;\">It is almost three years but I remember it vividly , the pain and and the heart wrenching tears are never forgotten.  Losing your loved one is never easy and sometimes I wonder if the pain ever goes away. It never does, it just stays suppressed in the heart and then there is a meltdown.. just like today. I was fine, taking a lunch break between classes and then suddenly something somewhere reminds me of my loss and it is tears and pain. I hid in the girls room weeping my heart out and came out with red puffy eyes. I gave my standard allergies excuse and moved on with life. But I know  I&#8217;ll give up anything in this world  to get him back.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-family: times new roman;\">I owe him everything I am today and I say a small thanks to him everyday with a small weepy smile &#8230; and life goes on&#8230;..<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-family: times new roman;\">I wonder will the pain every go away? Never I guess&#8230; I will never stop missing her grandpa and wishing he was here today to see and share my happiness&#8230;.<\/span><br \/>\n<span style=\"font-family: times new roman;\">I am sure right now as my eyes well up with unshed tears she is whispering, &#8220;mamaiyaa I miss you.. you promised me .. it is not fair&#8230; I love you and I miss you&#8221;<\/span><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I often wonder how I change suddenly.. one minute I am my usual self.. going around with my chores then the next minute, sobbing all over Even R can not handle these moments, I know how she feels and how big a loss it was for her. It is almost three years but I remember it vividly , the pain and and the heart wrenching tears are never forgotten. Losing your loved one is never easy and sometimes I wonder if the pain ever goes away. It never does, it just stays suppressed in the heart and then there is a meltdown.. just like today. 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