I have been having transition blues. I expected them to hit me sometime and they are here. The past week has been extremely difficult on a personal level. The problem is there no single issue I can pinpoint to. It is just a blue feeling and everything seems to go wrong.

I have been reading a couple of books that have some discussions about ambition and it has left me rather down. I try to think what my ambitions are and I cannot find anything. It depresses me – I miss the girl who lived. I was never hugely ambitious but I was a dreamer. Right now my ambition and dream is to get through the day, the week and hopefully the weekend without too many hitches.

How depressing is the thought? I wanted to have an ambition and sadly I cannot think of any. I do not have an urge to do anything for me.

I am really not sure what I feel or what I want either.

Strange!

Now that I have the words are typed – let me raise the volume and get some music into my day – I need to cheer up